Queer pt.2

Gay,
Lesbian,
Bisexual,
 Straight,
 All this are labels,
Put in place by nature,
For us to feel like we belong,
 What happens when your born a boy,
 But you feel like a girl on the inside,
 A girl but your insides scream boy,
And perhaps,even worse, your born with both,
 What happens to our fellow trans and intersex persons,
Because of our hypocrisy we shun them,
Because we judge what we dont understand we cast them,
Stone them with harsh words and dagger eyes,
We look at them as mentally challenged,
Was the Lord crazy when he created them,
 I mean,arent you religious types always in our faces with God creating us in his image,
 When we look at ourselves we should see God's reflection,
Right?
 So what happens when your queer,
 When society cant place you,
Fingers are pointing at you,
Forgetting that three point right back,
Empathy,
 Before you spit on someone in disgust,
 Put yourself in their shoes,
 And ask,
What if you were different?



Listen to same love by ryan lewis ft. mary lambert

Soul mates

There are certain people you meet, They cross your path so unexpectedly, But when you do, Everything from music to your random obsession with stripped colourful socks, You have in common, Its strange to meet such people, Because it feels almost scripted, Your bubble is burst with a pop sound, When there is that one flaw about them, That overshadows the greater good, You want to look past it, But its one of those things that will, And i emphasize will always be an issue, So what to do is the question? Listen to come around by stars go dim

of introverts and other things...

Just because I talk alot doesnt mean am an extrovert,
 Just because am social doesnt mean am an extrovert,
 Just because am not a shy,closed off bookworm doesnt mean am an extrovert,
 People need to stop conforming to mediocre definitions,
 I  could be going through hell on the inside,
 Doesnt mean am supposed to wear it on my sleeve,
 For the whole world to see,
 Fuck! a psychic, through some telepathic powers am to imagine what your going through,
 I am never in the mood to see people all of the time,
 But just because i feel that way doesnt mean i have to act like it,
 Being an introvert doesnt mean being cold,
 Being an ice queen,Being so closed off even you,dont get you,
 All you are is an ostrich,
 Your head is stuck in the sand most of the time,
 But eventually you come out,
 And in that moment,
 Dont be a bitch about it,
 Let us take care of you,
 Love you,hold you,smoother you,
 UNTIL YOU PUT YOUR HEAD BACK IN THE SAND....


Listen to summertime sadness by lana del rey.

Queer!!

Sitting in class waiting for the lecturer to come in, as always i have my earphones on jamming to some Ed Sheeran. There is a moment I remove my earphones and I hear the word gay amidst peoples conversation. It definitely catches my attention so I listen in. I have a classmate of mine who is a staunch muslim. By muslim I mean the full works,prayers, quran, heena, buibui things. She is cool, cool in my book because i have never interacted that closely with a muslim before and ended up friends. I also have another classmate who is muslim but only by virture of her last name. She does not conform to her religion at all. So the arguement on queer people begins between the two of them. It gets pretty heated as they are both on the opposite side of the queer support. I am careful not to jump in because I believe in choosing your battles and this one was one I knew I couldnt win. In the heat of the debate the staunch muslim blurts out "gay people are dogs". You can only imagine the silence that befell the room. I think the not so staunch one couldnt believe what she had just heard so she says "oh!did you mean doggy style". At that moment I burst out laughing because am very aware of homophobia, it exists but comparing queers to dogs is abit unnecessary in my book. So the arguement goes on and at a point the staunch muslim blurts out "and i never want to see a gay person in my life". Aaaaaawwwwwkward!!!!!!! Am sitting across from her and in my head am like "dude am gay,your looking at me now,its not like you have turned into stone or something." Most of you will ask why i did not stand up for my fellow queers. I have a couple of reasons:first of all, I believe that the people you come out to is a personal choice and in the event you coming out to people will make your life unbearable then i dont think its worth it. In this case, me and staunch muslim are friends, for the most part i would probably say we are the most alike, we get along, me coming out to her in a bid to defend queers will change the way we relate. I will be reduced to that gay girl, everything else about me will not really matter because "gays are dogs" right. Second, I have my own reservations toward this religious types(blog for another day),argueing with someone who is so deeply entrenched in religion is actually a lost cause for me, its not worth it, because of how close minded the religious types can be. Third,people always judge things they do not understand. I will however,slowly but surely educate her that being gay doesnt define who you are, its a part of who you are. Listen to same love by ryan lewis ft. mary lambert

of music and other things..

Music is one of those controversial topics because believes that they listen to only the best. While that may be true, I believe that there are several things that create a person who actually appreciates good music. 1.Mainstream things Yes,this is a shout out to all y'all bendover people. Mainstream is basically those people who do not know any other music except boogie,matatu or kiss 100 related music. I have nothing against such but if your going to claim your a music guru then you need to dig deeper, to the roots, passed the maistream. I do appreciate some mainstream music but it fades away because of over playing. 2.Lyrical content A song will never do it for me if the words dont make sense to me. Shout out to all you hiphop peeps. Some hiphop is actually amazing,nas,lupe fiasco, drake and king of my heart kendrick, but some is down right ratchet. All the songs that objectify women, make us look like all we are good for is big tits and booties, like al we amount to is being called sluts and bitches. And our vaginas made to feel like the best it can do is sell love to another man. Am too feminist for the lack of lyrical content that is some music. I have to be able to relate, like the words are speaking to me, almost as if the song was written with my situation in mind. 3.Instrumentals This for me varies from the crazy loud goodness that is EDM, or the soulful Rnb, or the heavy metal guitars in rock music. For me instruments play a very significant role in my enjoyment of music. If it sounds too gangstar or like people are banging on sufurias eeeeeh!!!boss zima muziki tafadhali. There is a fine line, a delicate balance between good lyrical content and amazing instrumentals, and thats what does it for me.

Secrets

You know its a good story when it begins with "that bitch.....", you know its an even better story when there is a dramatic flare, we all love to gossip, the forbidden fruit tastes sweetest, the more clandestine the story the jucier, people literally dont notice time go by, because the juice from this fruit oh!so succulent, what slips the mind is that after the fruit is done, your're left with a secret, a burden, to shut the fuck up, but you just want to share how sweet the juice is, in that slight moment of weakness, you blurt it out, even high five on it, it almost feels good to let this burden go, until it bites you in the ass, for not shutting the fuck up, secrets!!oh how we cant live with them, nor without them, shake of the insincere give all your secrets away. Listen to secrets by one republic

Inspiration!!!

i feel like i have been stuck, stuck in a bubble, maybe trapped, trapped in a notion, have been searching for some form of inspiration, but i have been stuck, in this confused spot, that you draw inspiration from those closest to you, today i took a leap of faith, i stepped out of that bubble, have never been more inspired, i needed today, because i dared to step out, and wow!felt like a breeze on a hot stuffy day, felt like a sip of cold lager after a long day, felt like i could rule the world for that brief moment, i stepped out and got my inspiration, i look foward to bursting this bubble, coz damn!finding inspiration feels amaaaaaazing!!!!!

Lanes!!!!

sometimes when your on the highway, the fast lane, you could swerve from side to side, most of the time its alright, but sometimes you may stride, you may fall out of line, several cars pass by, and this stride will cause a crash, maybe change,maybe indifference,maybe evasive, but whatever happens, this stride only lasts only for a while, it may bruise a little, or alot, but hash!hash!my child, hurt is healed with time, the bruising will leave scaring, but thats just a reminder of what you shouldnt return to, so wipe those tears, dust yourself off, it may take a while but, its essential to keep your lane, because only then, will you appreciate where you lie, in other people's lives....

Just for a while

sometimes do you feel like you just want a break from your own life, just for a while, to somehow morph out of your body and take a breather, sometimes things get so overwhelming, just for a while, an out of body experience, where you can laugh,make merry,dance,be happy, just for a while, a time out of sorts, where you get lost in your own euphoria,in your dreams and perhaps your nightmares, just for a while, ul be back but for a few moments all you want, is a break from your life, just for a while.