Sometimes....

Sometimes reality gets really difficult
to wrap the mind around,
Sometimes to disappear
feels like the only solution,
Sometimes the future's bleakness
needs a shining light,
Sometimes that light gets too bright,
To crawl into bed and not move
is a feeling that can overwhelm,
Sometimes apathy takes over emotion
so fucked up is your life lens,
Sometimes death feels so warm
so welcoming...so cuddly,
Sometimes to flirt with the idea
feels electrifying,
Feels valid,
Feels like a solution
That noose on your neck
those pills in hand
Sometimes expectation and reality don't add up,
Sometimes life as you know it takes fucked up turns,
Sometimes it is ok to feel
the fuck out of your feelings,
Sometimes to let go
and flow
to unclench that fist of control
is to acknowledge strength within,
Sometimes to mess up, fuck up and pray for death to
come for us
is to acknowledge our humanity...