I am Scared...

Maybe more of terrified,
No let's put it as scared shitless,
The Kenya Anti-Homosexuality Bill is back,
Today at 10:30am a political party brought it up again,
It began last year after the hot mess that was Uganda's Bill
but in the spirit of the selective amnesia that my country gets,
like clock work people forgot about it.
However, it is back.
My friend's reactions were very nonchalant because...selective amnesia,
The queer folk in my country are riding on the notion that the Bill will never
be a law because we forget so easily or better yet we have greater things to worry about
terrorism,poverty et al.
But my good people,
This dyke right here is scared,
I am scared because this is Bill is a message of hate,
It reminds people why gay people should not exist...
after all it is not very christian
It polarizes a space which we are fighting to legitimize,
It brings a feeling of otherness,
A feeling that we are less than human,
Mashoga sisi,
It invalidates progress in the 21st century,
It increases bigotry reduces acceptance,
Before my country men forget there will be a few days of weirdness,
Lack of comfort in your own skin,
Walking down the street feels like a death wish;paranoia abound,
I am going to meet up with a lady lover today,
This is the uneasiest I have been in a while, incessantly insisting that we just meet indoors,
I am scared...
I am scared that this vicious cycle will never end,
That queer and lurking in the shadows will always be synonymous,
I am scared...
that equality is something we queer folk have deluded ourselves into believing will ever exist,
I am scared...
that to love who you love will forever be plagued by religious and cultural bigotry,
I am scared...
that I will never kiss my lady in public,
I am scared...
that being queer will be the death of me
the death of us all...